CAST: John/Dave; Dirk, Jake, Rose, Dad
WORD COUNT: 11250
ADDITIONAL TAGS: complete, high school AU, bullying
SUMMARY: Sometimes, secondhand heartbreak hurts more, lasts longer, if only because the fear festers a little deeper, like a small scratch on a record that grows larger in time. You don’t want that heartbreak for yourself, so you hide. You hide yourself under so many layers that you can’t break free, because it’s the prison that you’ve put yourself in.
You’re so scared of what’s outside in the wild, that you don’t bother to fear for what’s inside, for what you’ve done to yourself.
EXCERPT: Looking at Dave being hurt, being miserable, lent him a new sort of pain in his chest that he grew to loathe. So he flirted. He made jokes of his attraction to the blond, because he had thought that it would make things stop. That maybe Dave would get angry at him, and he’d move on.
But Dave was always silent. Not once did he become furious at John, not once did he complain, not once did he actually push him away. He always said no, certainly- but he didn’t tell John to stop.
Dave had always been stronger than him, and he didn’t notice until now. He had a larger body, definitely. He had more muscular strength, more endurance, but Dave was resilient. There were so many people that tried to break him, so many people that had tried to tear him apart again and again- but he stood strong. He was still here, after all.
Dave was fragile, and yet not. He was like a wine glass, the glass substituted for acrylic plastic. He would seem breakable on first sight when dropped- but he didn’t crack all that easily.
Throw him down repeatedly, though, and he’ll fracture, just like anything else. Just like anyone else.
He didn’t want that.
rec’d by everlind